thinking about how castiel could literally “kiss it better” and overwhelmed with how sappy the imagery of it is like. yeah cas could just put a hand on dean’s shoulder to heal him but also he could kiss him.
One more! Because I’m a sap for happy endings and there were like… so many options.
On a personal note: I am completely floored by all the comments, tags, messages and additions to that other comic. I’ve read and cherished each and every single one. <3
I want to thank you all for making this fandom fun, crazy, intense and full of amazing and talented people.
Since
all the chaos i put you all through i feel like a behind the scenes is
the least i can do or you can call it my classic villain long ass
annoying explanation.
And yeah, I, because i’m one (1) stupid ass bitch.
What started this?
Well, i was obviously angry for everything.
Then
Misha posted a video where he threw the “rogue translator” under the
bus and said “But I’m confident you guys can sort that part out as your
writing, art, and imaginations play the story out past the last frames
we filmed.“
And so i did.
That one line fueled so much anger in me, because after everything, we really do need to fix it ourselves? Then watch me do it. In
this moment i got basically possessed by revenge, anger and inspiration.
Many of you figured out how i did it but let me walk you through it!
I downloaded the first confession video i could find on youtube, decided the part i wanted to dub and started digging. I
looked up all supernatural scripts, then i had to go to Vampire diaries
and whatever the frick that legions spinoff was, then all the Twilight
movies, then One Tree Hill, Marley & I and so on. It was pure
suffering. Each time i found a matching word i had to check the episode
to find out if the intonation was right, if there was music, or if the
dubber even had the same tone of voice so i went to a lot of youtube
clips and streamings that i absolutely didnt want to watch. After 24 hours i had heard so many “ti amo” and “castiel” i started to hear them when editing the background. In
the end, of all the stuff i found most of it was trash and not worth to
be on this leak, so i had to dig again. And i found it, the “i love
you”, it comes from The Office, the PDA episode. I still feel bad about
putting that one there but it was the only one that somehow worked wit
the lipsync (Yeah, i also looked at that, what the fuck is wrong with
me?). While as for the “anch’io” that dean says it comes from the
2x20 and the so much loved and apreciated “Castiel" and “i’m sorry” is
from the 8x17. So yeah i worked so much for nothing, but i was still
proud of what i had. (you can now imagine a montage of me trying to
edit out the background music for hours from random voice clips just to
throw them all away in the end) As for the background music i zoomed
in as much as possible and basically hand stitched the music to make it
sound seamless, and GOD Yes i even went through the whole original
soundtrack to see if there was anything i could use to just slap and
replace but obvs not, so back to hand stitching and hearing voices for
like 2-3 hours. it was now 8 am and i heard that clip so many times
it didnt make sense anymore, so i slept for like, three hours before
waking up with the worst idea i ever had. I was running on like, a total
of 5 hours of sleep in two days because i also had a fever and ANYWAY. I
thought “what if i make this real, like, real real” Thats
when the LEAK idea was born, that same morning of the 27. I did some
googling, i looked up a in studio picture and saw the counter, that i
couldnt recreate with any program i had (btw, i only used imovie for
this disaster) i tried them all and at that point i just wanted it to
end so i was FUCK THIS. FUCK. And went to youtube, and, well. I found
what i was sure was gonna get me busted. This.
When i put this in the video i knew someone was gonna get me, and i was
70% sure it would have been this. Then, i slapped everything together
and decided what to do with the logo. So i did the most logical thing and googled “remove watermark from video“ and
this is the 30% of the other thing that would have gotten me busted,
because it was crap and obvious but i was running on zero sleep and my
brain was on fire and i was not thinking anymore at that point. The
video was done, and now i just had to put it on my tv (AND I WANT TO
MAKE THIS CLEAR, I READ ALL OF YOUR POSTS AND COMMENTS AND CALLING MY
POOR TV OLD AND ANCIENT HURT ME WAY MORE THAN ALL THE OTHER THINGS YOU
GUYS CALLED ME, but i guess its fair) i turned on my ps4 and went on
this cursed blog where i already posted the hd version of the video, i
made a recording of the tv and then deleted the hd one and posted the
phone recorded one. Spammed it at random people that were online at the time (according to tumblr) and waited.
I want also to say that after watching this clip an infinite number of times that the ORIGINAL editing si absolute trash, there are music skips and cgi bugs, then the camera cuts are absolutely random and they 100& cut a shit ton of video, and took away some random lines says when thrown on the gorund.
And in this moment i was thinking about the CW, about how they buried our gays again. But that grave is big enough for everyone working on that network spreading hate, homophobia, racism ableism and so on. Your time will come too.
Anyway, when i started to come to my sense and wonder if what i did was
right or wrong. I still don’t know if i would do it again. I feel
like i was giving hope, i really did, because if this lie could hold a
bit longer, then it would be real for a moment more.
I’m sorry for
making anyone feel bad about this, i really am, if its of any
consolation i went through hell and i will never blame anyone for hating
me.
I just couldn’t make this fandom end on such a bittersweet note, not like that.
I hope that whoever tried to debunk this had some fun, and maybe made some good memories with friends over this.
Thank you everyone for debunking this, you were all amazing. I will miss this fandom.
the jib4 video where someone asks if dean understands the impact he’s had on cas and without a moment’s hesitation jackles is like “no not at all” and goes on to say it’s because cas is an angel and he doesn’t think that human feelings translate the same….. he’s had that in mind for a long time huh. okay! [takes another bite out of my glass sandwich]
It’s my birthday today, so here’s a humble present, haha.
It’s one of many 15x20 rewrites I’ve been imagining, because honestly, they could have done SO much, and that’s what hurts. It’s cheesy and a bit all over the place, and it took me a while because I was honestly grieving for how the show ended, not to mention that I suffered a rather devastating personal loss very recently. I was also debating whether or not to continue investing in the fandom of something that erased so much from so many. It was a process.
Still, the community of wonderful people and creators (and shipper!Sam) pulled me from the doldrums. So thank you, so very much, for being all kinds of awesome. Keep those memes coming, folks, and I hope you enjoy.
(Please don’t repost, but feel free to buy me a coffee if you enjoy my work. It really means so much <3)
Supernatural being like ‘this is Dean he knows Rent lines off by heart and his favourite movie is lost boys but he is straight. He is straight. Anyway this is his very good best friend Cas he exclusively uses pop girl aliases and went against his family and god for Dean. They have two children together and live together but not like that. Despite being an established womaniser Dean has barely flirted with a woman in years.’ Is just soo funny like yeah and I’d like to introduce you to my aunt and her very close gal pal roommate who she has lived with for 30 years.
every day for the rest of my life I am going to be cursed to think about how supernatural created the most incredible love story with the most beautiful parallels and interactions between the characters where the truth of the characters and their love truly strained against every single cut script and changed take and firing of misha collins and alternate heterosexual love interests and all the rest of it and how THAT love story was written in a text where the characters WERE trying to escape their narrative at the end and THAT text highlighted the characters’ love for each other being a fundamental tenet of free will straining against authority I cannot believe they walked right up to this narrative almost entirely by accident AND YET it was endgame in spite of almost everything in our world working against it…. I wake up every morning and I am nicole kidman screaming I stare out my balcony every day at dusk and I am ben affleck smoking heavily. like this is proof of god in a way that also fundamentally disproves god; proof of some undefinable magic that existed in supernatural and the characters and that story and I AM romanticising a cw show because your honour please examine the evidence and TELL ME I am wrong to do so and TELL ME it is wrong to be frustrated by the fact the true end of this narrative was never shown to us - that, perhaps in the most poetic and fitting way possible, the characters escaped the narrative so entirely that they left the story a shell of its former self that ended just as god/the writers had planned, and whatever fucking magic and life there was in that narrative was freed when chuck died, and indeed, the real supernatural was the story all along, a spirit finally set free from this mortal earth. fucking wild
who said it deans’ unspoken desire for people to stop leaving him and cas’ same need to be asked explicitly to stay? they really are two halves of the same whole
